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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-12-16 09:29 pm

honestly

sometimes wish have more trust to say people can refer with she pronouns as well , but sort of problem of assumptions . like that someone would come across pronouns without context , and assume get to pick and choose which one feel " right " , and not that pronouns vary by kossai choice . 

so never really do that . kind of derive euphoria from characters instead . 
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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-12-15 01:51 am
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shezow's 13th anniversary !

december 15th , 2012 , mark first release of superhero cartoon shezow ...

this show overall was pretty silly - lots of stuff that can expect from any old kids' superhero fare but with silly gender-based twists , since main character is boy as hyperfeminine superhero .

but there was also episode ( link to tubi tv ) in which mother learn of son's identity as shezow , and feel so much pride and joy that want to reveal for sake of show pride , which would endanger - not only because secret identity is secret for reason , but particularly because father hate shezow .

show was not able to get all that deep into things , realistically - there was talk quite some time ago that even acceptance of identity as shezow was hard to get on air , let alone any kind of deeper thoughts and questions . but honestly still hold pretty fond place in memory , for nuggets like that .

so , happy anniversary , shezow ! 

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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-12-14 10:31 am

if kossai could write novels ...

just think about how kossai would handle fae romance novel ...

would make as gay as possible . while human might be confuse and initially put off by this , of course , faerie would have no thoughts on this as strange . fae like what fae like , and fae do what fae do , regardless of human perceptions of right and wrong , normal and abnormal . and no 6 page monologues to come out . 

never really fan of whole nobility thing . if did incorporate nobility , would be more for show , not legitimate social structure . fae just play pretend with these things sometimes - anyone can be prince or princess , duke or duchess , whatever . likewise , would write court dynamics as more personal reflection . 

would incorporate personal biological cycles . acotar's " calanmai " thoroughly disappoint with how fucking straight this shit was , can do idea of faerie heat so much better from experience . not that heat cycle is inherent to faeries , and certainly not within folklore , but faerie sexuality can be very intense and hard to contain . still able to feel intensely at any time , but if most intense feelings bloom on predictable cycle , then become much easier to deal with than when entirely random . 

not really keen on idea of one big evil faerie . would want conflicts to be more grounded and interpersonal as faerie struggle to understand how to woo human , and human struggle with navigate faerie realm . in other words , would basically play faerie thorns faerie roses :P 
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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-12-13 11:27 am
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another minor acotar whinge

like to joke that acotar would be better if tamlin and lucien could be gay , but know reality of this is , would still personally find unbearable to read , just would be gay instead . actually watch through some videos about later series entries , in which there is 1 singular bisexual woman who spend 6 pages to monologue entire history and sexuality , and then never appear again . pretty sure if SJM try to write gay or bisexual men , would fall into all of worst tropes and stereotypes .  

of course , some fans pick up slack with gay art and fanfiction , but ... lots of this seem to be pre-story or extreme fixer-upper AUs , in which just make nearly everything up , because fundamentally incompatible with actual stories and various counts of character assassination , most notably tamlin's . at that point , personally feel like would not be worth effort to work with source material at all , and might as well just rip off favourite parts to make something new . not sure how feel about engage with fandom in which main appeal is to literally ignore all of source material . sure , there is some stuff that personally ignore or write over in elder scrolls character stories , but at least genuinely enjoy elder scrolls games and concepts as is . 
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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-12-10 11:09 pm
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and done with ACOTAR ...

that . was . that was something . keep most of rambles to access list currently , as not yet finish and did not want to make public judgments too early . but no longer is this shackle !

some of faerie topics which handle , actually think alright . bogge , suriel , and attor do not represent particular faeries of old lore , but feel like fit in decently . faerie music is written as suitably magical , able to make feyre feel wonderful , free , and ready to dance . faerie food ruin feyre's sense of taste for human food . even final quarter's trials , tasks , and riddles kind of impress .

unfortunately , some of these really nice moments come at cost of feyre's character image - this woman is meant to be capable hunter who feed whole family and know dangers of faerie menace , yet blatantly rush into dangerous faerie-based situations far more than actually listen to warnings

some parts amuse for entirely wrong reasons - that is to say , laugh at plenty of bad character choices , ridiculous interactions , and contradictions to faerie sensibilities . other parts annoy , because feel like author poorly set up - particularly in ways that take away agency and capability from feyre - or just get horny at worst moments like grief and moral quandary . pick literally any other time to get horny , pretty please ?

very glad that borrow this from library , rather than purchase . manage to satiate curiosity for this series , and safe to say will not continue . 
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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-12-10 04:36 pm

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have to admit , there is funny irony in faeries tell humans how to spot generative AI fakes .
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qestir ([personal profile] qestir) wrote2025-12-09 11:34 am

Double Standard

Title: Double Standard
Fandom: Final Fantasy XIV
Characters: Nashu, Briardien, Cecy, Julyan
Notes: I’m in my Hildibrand era, but there’s just one thing about the ARR quests that bothered me.

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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-12-07 07:01 pm

media engagement thoughts ~ background engagement

or as people might more likely say , second screen - to keep media on in background , while pay attention to phone or otherwise . but would say also go for crafters to some extent , like crocheters and knitters .

on one hand , definitely understand need for something to fill background , especially if live with other people who make noises and distractions . on other hand , sometimes fail to see why music is not enough for that . do not think music should always be in background either , but at least serve role of filter out in interesting way , without take too much attention to tune back in and enjoy as is .

maybe just have wonky perspective because HOH - even when medium is audio only like podcast , will follow transcript , or if there is none , then will make sure to avoid all other distractions so as to hone in on comprehension . this is not to say that never play other things in background , but honestly ? this is almost always something that already know well enough to not lose track if tune out .

again , there is sort of ... on one hand , to use videos like this can give clear markers of how much time pass . just get through two 20 minute videos while crochet , so know 40 minutes , which means just about time to make lunch . on other hand ... surely all these music platforms can estimate playlist length and let user choose , right ...? but maybe give some of these platforms too much credit >.>

if really interest in something , then would like to watch that thing as is . even if that means , say for example , defunctland's latest nearly 4.5 hour video - which still only halfway finish , watch in bits over this past week . not because of video's failure to keep interest , but need breaks to do other things , to recuperate from listening fatigue , and sometimes to watch shorter things in between . 

just feel that beyond personal accessibility needs for captions and transcripts , people use visual mediums when visual components important - otherwise would be audio podcasts , books , or whatever else . therefore , feel like make sense to give best attention possible .
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kossai ([personal profile] kossai) wrote2025-12-04 08:14 pm

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downside to fix socks is that in order to ensure fit with non-elastic thread , have to actually sew while wear on body . already sew several leg hairs into stitches , but somehow not prick too hard yet . 

think about other potential methods , just on first pair anyway .